I’m Not A Gender Zombie and Neither Are You: Rejecting Anti-Trans Bigotry From Rachel Ivey and Deep Green Resistance
Word has quickly spread on the web in the last week or so that Rachel Ivey, a member of the Deep…
Fucking incredible. Anyone know if Ivey’s Bluestockings event got canceled?
my computer broke but i found a charger adaptor for my very old laptop that has no battery and a broken touch pad and an ancient corrupted version of ubuntu and is covered in baby anarchist memorabilia - there’s some crimethinc on here, half of a this bike is a pipe bomb sticker, that cristy c road typewriter sticker from microcosm press, my first stencil (it says THIS TOO SHALL PASS) and a bunch of paint smears
Truth also is the pursuit of it:
Like happiness, and it will not stand.
Even the verse begins to eat away
In the acid. Pursuit, pursuit;
A wind moves a little,
Moving in a circle, very cold.
How shall we say?
In ordinary discourse—
We must talk now. I am no longer sure of the words,
The clockwork of the world. What is inexplicable
Is the ‘preponderance of objects,’ The sky lights
Daily with that predominance
And we have become the present.
We must talk now. Fear
is fear. But we abandon one another.”
i’m so excited about this thing I just made!
so i work at this place in bougie hell-town that has a “fermentation bar” and sells a thing called a “shrub” which has many definitions, apparently, but there it is a kind of vinegar soda where the vinegar is infused with fruit and then mixed with soda water. they look really delicious but are like $4 for a tiny glass so i decided to make my own. i love vinegar! so much! and i love making potions on the stove! so i made this simple syrup with a bunch of spicy and aromatic herbs in it - cardamom, cinnamon, ginger, fennel, and a little bit of chili flakes and reduced it for 20-ish minutes and then sampled equal parts of the syrup mixed with rice vinegar and oh my god it’s the most delicious thing I’ve ever tasted. i am letting the herbs steep in the syrup overnight before i strain it and i’m going to get some soda water and mix them all together. i have a lot of other ideas for syrup combinations (meadowsweet/burdock/rose, for one!) & some people make the vinegar just by cold infusing the sugar and fruit/herbs in it so maybe i’ll try that too.
the older i get the more of an impenetrable cocoon of invisibility/solitude i find myself looking out of and i am like where did this horrible thing come from and then i remember oh i made it to protect myself in a time of danger but sometimes i want to let things in, you know? before i made this cocoon everything got in and i was overpowered by other people’s energies — predatory energies, needy energies, sexualizing energies, and i was very hurt and felt very damaged, and i eventually figured out how to block out almost everything to a very high degree, my outer demeanor, for years and years, has been one of unfriendliness, blankness, and only rarely a cautious and tentative welcoming — all of my energy has been focused on self-protection but sometimes now that i am maybe not as scared and small as i once was i want to let myself be actually vulnerable, and it’s so hard, and it hurts, and i don’t know if i can do it, but i am trying.
this month’s horoscopes
this is the kinda horoscope i can get behind
today i wrapped approximately three hundred soaps in gray wool
okay, okay i am drunk and maybe i will keep drinking cause there’s another beer, this day was so frustrating, i;m so starved for meaningful human contact
went to the river with my housemate and some people from school and their visiting friends, one of whom was like this well meaning but insufferable hippie dude, at one point my school friend was talking about her experience traveling where she was almost assaulted by a stranger, and dude was like “you’re a warrior, that was a test, you passed it, you’re pretty much unrapeable” and OH MY GOD i wanted to punch him in the FACE
i said, very loudly, “for a person to be raped doesn’t mean they are weak” and he was like “blah blah yeah of course” and then the conversation went onto something else
they spent ike 30 min talking about festivals they are going to go to, and “male and female energy”
i am bein a complainer but dear god i miss my friends